Arriving where I am. Thinking about the future and figuring out how to stay present. Thinking about how to listen more. Taking in the edges of the mountain range and to give myself the break I need with an opening body, a slowing mind. A reminder of the breath. 

I am partly tired of what was and thinking that if somehow I can slow down the monkey mind, I can get back to what matters. More sunshine. More presence. More gratitude for what I have. A combination of listening more for what I want and being okay with the uncertainty. 

At least for now I am here. Staring out into the blue horizon. Figuring out where I sit in relation to the moon. Coming back home to what matters in the sunlight filled room with exposed beams and holiday cheer. In my slowing, am I doing enough for staying present? Am I giving myself the opportunity to try new things? 

I have a chance to be closer to what is. I have an opportunity to focus on what matters most. And while I am here, giving myself my best, I am opening up the potential of what is and what matters. Here in this space, coming back to a chance to learn about what really matters, I am reminded of the art of my own attention and how I want to give myself the space and time to appreciate all the opportunities that life presents. 

Right now I am trying new things. I am stretching across the edges. I am focusing on how I can participate in a way that feels good and allows me the space to be okay not knowing what comes next. I am learning to connect more deeply with what matters here and to give myself to explore the edges where I am testing new waters. Where I am trying new things. Where I can most completely be myself without having to prove anything to anyone (especially myself). 

A picture of what is. A consideration of what’s to come. A focus on how I am showing up for myself in all the ways that are most relevant. I am here for feeling good in my skin. I am here for trying new things and expanding. I am here for appreciating all the capacities I have in the case that I don’t have them anymore. In all of this, a gentler return to what matters to me where I am.